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Holistic Energy Medicine Delivered Me From Bondage to Shame

Holistic Energy Medicine Delivered Me From Bondage to Shame

How The Darin Method® Restored My Soul

As I was preparing to visit my extended family at Christmas 2021, I felt overwhelmed with anxiety after two years apart due to the Covid Pandemic. I would have to talk about my divorce with them face to face for the first time. I was ashamed that I had failed at my marriage, made the wrong choice for a husband, and was thousands of dollars in debt. In addition, I would be exposing our addictions to alcohol and spending, which I had hidden for 15 years out of fear of being judged. I saw myself as even more of a failure because I compared my life to that of my brothers and cousins, who had everything I thought I needed to be successful and happy: married with kids, owning and remodeling their homes, successful careers, multiple vehicles, and posting vacation photos on social media. I was angry that I wasn’t on the same path my family had achieved. I was in my 40’s, leaving the marriage with no children, home, or car; I had nothing but my job in NYC, debt, shame, and regrets.

Thankfully, I was working with Linda Darin for spiritual healing from the trauma of my mother’s death and was now ready to heal the shame holding me back from living my life. Through The Darin Method®, I learned that I had trapped myself in a belief system I had learned from my family. I believed I had to be married, have a family, and own my home just like everyone else to be a successful adult. Linda’s intuitive counsel showed me that I was bonded to the dark emotions of fear and shame in many different behavior patterns as I shared the story of my childhood from birth to 10 years old. I was so embarrassed when I was taken to the nurse’s office in grade school when I couldn’t hear the teacher in class and discovered that I had wax buildup in my ears. I felt dirty and ashamed! I was anxious about wearing my glasses in school because no one else in my class had them. I didn’t want to be different. I was embarrassed and thought I was stupid when I couldn’t figure out how to tell the time on the clock above the chalkboard. I cried when a girl made fun of my drawing because I couldn’t handle criticism. I believed I was unworthy of love and affection if I wasn’t perfect. If I didn’t follow the rules and succeed in school, art class, music, and sports, I would be a failure. I also saw that I had dropped out of activities that weren’t easy for me to succeed in. I left gymnastics when I was seven, even though I loved it because I couldn’t do the standing backbend required to graduate to the next level. My foundation created patterns and beliefs of unworthiness hidden in my soul. When the light began to shine on this darkness, I had the freedom to change and transform.

These patterns continued with me as I got older. After junior high, I dropped out of volleyball because I couldn’t master the overhead serve. I even dropped out of philosophy class in college because I couldn’t handle debating the validity of my point of view! I was incredibly ashamed of my family’s poorly maintained, dirty home as an adult. I was afraid to have any of my friends visit and see the state of our house without spending an entire day cleaning it first. My husband and I stayed at a hotel when we visited, so I didn’t have to deal with my shame and embarrassment. As a child, I took on the family hero role, striving to achieve in all areas so my family could be proud of me. I believed that any perceived criticism or failure would somehow expose my family’s shame of our home, which we kept hidden. As an adult, I continued these patterns, becoming a workaholic, keeping the attention on my performance and off my troubled marriage and cluttered home.

Until I worked with Linda Darin, I was ignorant of the opening my shame and anxiety created for demonic infiltration into my mind, body, and soul. I was unaware of the permission I gave to the cluster of dark spirits of shame, fear, anxiety, and guilt when I felt I had failed. Through regular spiritual and holistic healing sessions, weekly energy healing, and chakra balancing sessions, Linda’s deliverance gifts freed me from my bondage, removing the negative energies. Each distance healing session was different. Sometimes I would see healing colors of gold, white, and purple; other times, my legs and arms would jerk as the negative energies were released. Yet, each week my will became stronger to want to continue healing and change my behavior patterns.

In this process, I rediscovered my connection to God and the powerful weapon of forgiveness. The depth of God’s forgiveness as I repented and confessed in sorrow for hating myself for any small failure, judging myself as less than enough, for being angry at everyone in my family for having what I wanted helped me forgive myself. I could let go of my shame for all the decisions that led me to where I am today. I began seeing failures as learning experiences and was no longer afraid of being exposed as imperfect. Linda guided me to explore my job history as an autobiography, which helped me find a new role that fits my skills and needs without competition. Instead of alcohol or shopping to cover up my shame, guilt, and anxiety, I turn to Linda’s tools for soul prosperity. I journal my emotions and practice moments of self-care throughout the day. I move my body and use colors and essential oils connected to the chakras to release my feelings instead of locking them inside.

Eventually, I was honest with my family about my experiences in my toxic marriage to an alcoholic and mentally ill man, and they accepted me without judgment. Unfortunately, my distorted perception of reality made me believe they would judge me if I shared the truth. I conveniently forgot that my aunt and cousin are divorced and remarried – I wasn’t alone in my experience. I understand that healing happens when my darkness is exposed to the light of God’s love – I don’t have to hide it in shame. Without Linda’s intuitive guidance, holistic energy medicine, and knowledge of Christian faith healing, I would still be locked in my shame and anxiety. I am grateful that God led me to seek spiritual healing with Linda Darin. I am a new woman today because of our work together!